Sorry it has been a couple weeks since my last post, but it
has been a busy last few weeks….
I had an MRI, a pain management and 3 doctor visits. Not to mention, I have been volunteering at
my daughter’s school, hosting dinners, working and of course being a wife and
mother.
Are you on the edge of your seat wondering what the results
of the MRI was? Should I keep you
waiting? Nah that would be cruel; drum
roll please…… I am tumor FREE. Let the
happy dance begin!!!
Even better, I am starting to feel more and more like
me. The weird thing is while Shirley was
acting up I had no idea I was in such a dark place. I knew that I was not 100%, but looking back
now I kinda feel sorry for that woman who was suffering. Yes physically it was my body, but
emotionally and mentally that was not me.
The Faith I know and love is a funny go lucky smart ass and the woman
with the stupid tumor was an anxious sad lady who was always in pain even
though she was on a regiment of pain meds that would knock out a small village.
Before you read on take a guess at how many pain pills I
took a day. Do you have a number in your
head? Great! Read on.
When I woke I’d go to the kitchen grab my pill box and swallow
my morning dose of 3 oxycodone and 1 morphine.
When lunch time came I was so relieved that it was finally time to repeat
the formula, at dinner, you guessed it another 3 oxycodone and 1 morphine and
at bedtime, I toke 1 Cymbalta and an occasional sleeping pill. I know what you are thinking she is going to
get addicted (if she is not already). Folk’,
becoming an addict was/is the least of my worries and while on this cocktail it
only made my pain manageable (see: Pain Medication: Are You Addicted?) so that I could get through the day. I was ALWAYS in pain. ALWAYS!!!
Blah! Blah! Blah! Enough of this depressing shit as the
title of this post states I am beginning to feel a lot like me again and slowly
starting to get back to my life and doing the things I love, cooking, shopping,
visiting with friends and family, traveling (personal and work), playing with
my daughter and soon I will get my FAT ass back to the gym!
I still have a little ways to go to be rid of my daily pain
and yes I continue to take pain meds, but a WHOLE lot less. In fact, I no longer take morphine and dropped
down to 2 oxycodone 2-3 times a day (usually 2 times). They tell me someday I will have no pain; I
hope this is true.
I wish you and yours a happy and HEALTHY Holidays Season!
xoxo,
Faith